Today, God put something in my life just when I needed it, and strangely enough, it was yesterday's blog post.
I was upset about something, and I was (quite emotionally) questioning God about certain things that had happened, not understanding His will for me. I was very near the depths of self pity, when, in my (futile) attempt to distract myself, I opened my computer. My internet connection was nonexistent, so my attempts to Facebook the night away were thwarted. In frustration, I clicked on the tab where I had left my blog up. And there it hit me:
Give thanks to the Lord for all things.
Whoa. I mean, when I wrote that, I had little going on to complain about, and had contemplated the whole idea at length. It is a nice, neat idea, with convenient biblical references. But there I was in the throes of frustration, anger, and sadness; life was not at all what I hoped it would be... the exact moment that the test of giving thanks was most applicable.
My own words challenged me. Would I continue as I was, or would I step up and put in to practice something that is much easier blogged about then actually done?
As I thought about it, I realized that despite the crappiness of the situation, there was so much to thank God for. And as I sat there in prayer listing all the good that I saw in the situation, and thanking God for it, my perspective transformed. I no longer felt hopeless or desperate, but instead filled with JOY that the Lord is acting in my life, and that I have before me a wonderful opportunity to grow deeply in His love!
God also foreshadowed this test when I was journeying through the bible in Eucharistic Adoration today. One of the verses I wrote down was Psalm 26:2:
"Probe me, Yaweh, examine me, test my heart and my mind in the fire. For your faithful love is before my eyes, and I live my life by your truth."
I feel like I passed the test, and that I am beginning to truly live by God's truth. Thank God!
1 comment:
AMEN!!! Praise the Lord indeed.
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